Its over! After so long trying to get her, asking her out. I have finally given up.
I can't keep living in a world of false hope and suffer disappointment each week.
I thought I meant something, I thought I had something but maybe it was just this fantasy cooked up in my head.
Maybe I wasn't anything, I was nothing but a mere pest which she had to humour and appease.
Maybe its just not meant to be, sometimes there are just things you can't achieve no matter how much you try, its sad but that's reality.
I never seem to have any luck with girls, maybe I just ain't right for this kind of stuff.
Maybe the priesthood awaits.
I am growing up, my view of the world is changing.
There is something I feel missing in my life, this emptiness that I don't know how to describe.
This emptiness that I feel that makes me want to shout, makes me want to cry.
What is this thing that I feel?
Feeling oh so blue, but yet I hide it with my smile.
Pretend everything is fine.
There is a monster inside of me...Help me please

Friends are indeed really important, and i am truely greatful for all the great friends around me.
People who support me, encourage me, listen to me or rather just being there for me.
Truely what would i be without my friends around me.
Just last night for example, Kenneth whom i had not spoken to for damn long just messaged me all of a sudden over MSN.
Just asking how everything was going, yeh i do miss the days in AJC at least the times when the three of us guys in 1303 hung out.
Yeh he gave me great advice on how to get the girl i am trying to jio.
Be yourself! and basically don't think so much, if she likes you she likes you.
I have known this thing about being yourself for a long time, but i guess it took a friend to tell it straight to be to really make it significant and apparent to me.

Oh yeh did you catch me on NDP! i was that small guy in the 9th column 4th row of the police guard of honour contingent.

Yeh to you people out there, thanx for being there

It sure feels like a long time since i last blogged.
Well anyway, to give you an update on what is happening, i will be marching in the Parade tomorrow.
Woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!
Three months plus of hard work will finally pay off, and the best thing is that after that, i will have my saturdays again!
Yeh so catch me on tv ( hopefully) i will be in the 11th column of the police gurad of honour contingent, 5th row.
Hopefully i don't cock up or anything tomorrow, yeh well wish me luck!!