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My body clock is a mess! I think I am lacking sleep but I don't feel sleepy.
Surviving on just two hours of sleep last night and two hours from this afternoon, and yet I am feeling damn hyper. What the hell is going on!!!

yea, we had our first rehearsal at the Padang yesterday, and my my the atmosphere was great! To tally different from the feeling you get from doing rehearsals at Nee Soon Camp. Guess it was probably because of the crowds lining the streets.
I mean when you are the focus of everyone's attention you just feel good and a great sense of pride in what you are doing. Man! I don't think I ever marched that seriously before, well no choice really I mean the cameras everywhere.
yea, we will all be in for a treat come 9th August, it will be a great parade.

Was kind of shagged out after the whole rehearsal thing and was actually thinking of going home to sleep, but what the hell I thought, sleep can wait, off to meet my friends.
Arrived at Ee hui's place at about 11 plus I guess, yea and basically stayed await much of the night playing Mah Jong and the PS2 with Xian Wang.
Time certainly passes by faster when one is having fun cause before I knew it it was already 530 and freak I was still at the Mah Jong table.
Had to sleep after that, the floor was surprisingly comfortable, slept like a baby before waking up at 730 to go for breakfast with the rest of the gang.
Overall a fun night, can't wait to hold another gathering like that. Its always great to meet up with old friends, experiences to share, stories to tell, makes life all the more interesting.
Not sure what I would do without my friends by my side, though its not often we meet, you guys are important to me yea!
Hate being alone...........

I have always distanced myself from close relationships whether or not its with guys or girls. Always felt that I should have a wide circle of friends, no really close friends or best friends. But I think now perhaps I may be regretting my actions. Without a close knit of friends you quite constantly feel bored cause when you want to do something you have to depend on your friends who have closer friends they will rather be with, understand? yea....Ok I don;t know why I am ranting about this, I guess I am just trying to get this off my chest.

Another week has passed, nothing much this week except I seem to be the only guy in the squad that can't do forward rolls. Not to worry though, I think I am getting the hang of it without looking too much like an idiot.

Yeh, seems like everything is going on fine so far, I have a place in NTU, getting along fine back at police academy, really nothing much to fuss about it seems.
Only thing I would hope to better would probably be the thing going on with her. Been coming along really slow these few weeks and I am not sure what it means.
Did I write this already? yeh anyway she says she is not really comfy going out with me alone cause we don't really know or have been with each other for long, so its really awkward. You know, like when we have nothing much to talk about so it gets a little weird.
Yeh but for me I find that ok I mean how do you get to know each other better if you don't see each other more?
So basically just been smsing a lot with nothing developing, she knows I have a crush on her or something like that but I don't know what she thinks of me, leaving this huge question mark in my head. I seriously don't know where this whole thing is going. It seems like it is in a state of limbo, not going anywhere at all.
I mean with University starting the situation can only get worse, by then she may be too busy to even SMS me anymore let alone go out.
Seems like a real difficult task ahead for me in this matter.

Yeh well that's my problem anyway, it seems like when you get to a certain phase in life you start to seek companionship or something.

Oh yeh before I go for another week, whats this big hoohaah about this sarongpartygirl crap. So she posed nude, so do millions of other people on the internet. Let her live her life lah! bloody hell go see her nude picture then still want to kao bei after enjoying yourself.
Its her life I don't see whats the deal about her doing what she wants.

I can't believe it! I just went through a seven day week!
Saturday was entirely spent at Nee Soon Camp for the NDP rehearsal and today i spent the much of the day at the police carnival helping sell wristbands.
I hardly spent any time at home besides sleeping, man the police is taking over my life.
In an hours time it will be back to PA for again another 5 days....well hopefully we can book out early on friday to collect our 'A' level certificates. That would be best.

How would you feel if someone told you they had a cruch on you? would you feel scared? happy? confused?
I don't know seriously tell me, because thats what I said to her.
Hopefully it was the right move.

Ever noticed that nothing ever goes according to how you want it to turn out to be, or how you dream of it to be.
even if something happens according to plan, there is always that little something that keeps it from becoming perfect to what you envision it to be.
This is altogether frustrating and well maybe on the positive note exciting.
Today for instance, I planned to catch Hitchhikers guide to the galaxy at 245 at Lido with my former section mates before surprising her with flowers to cheer her up, at 5pm. After which going for a stroll together before making my way home at 6 and reaching home by 7.

This is what happened instead, i made it to Lido by 245 but one of my friends was late so we missed the movie. We ended up watching the horror of a movie UNLEASHED at 345. 2 things out of my plan.
Ok so the movie ended at 530, there goes my plan again!
So i thought maybe i can still meet her at 6, ok so i messaged her. 615....620....630 she did not reply, so no choice had to go home and reached home by 730.
The whole day was one big mess. Not the day i envisioned it to be at all!
Damn!
well maybe that why people say life is unpredictable, but why can't it just go according to how i want it to be sometimes. Just once? PLEASE???????????