Well tomorrow I am having my last paper of the mid year and all I can say is I am f!cked.
Chemistry the first paper was totally crap, I did not study NMR and transition metals--can't be bothered and just hoped that it would not come out
well it did......... And not some simple structured question but two essay questions worth altogether 20 marks...Obviously I couldn't write shit for the two questions.
Maths...Its not like I did not try to study..I stayed up to 4 the night before.....
the result....I could hardly do a single question, hopefully I can at least get a double digit score
Today's bio was no better, I really studied for bio but still......

what's over is over and I think I really should start getting serious with my work if not.........
I really feel I have been slacking too much but its not like I don not want to do well, its just....Something unexplainable.
maybe I should write down my goals..

GOALS (PRELIM)
Biology-B
Chem-B
Maths-C
GP-B3

hopefully they are attainable considering the sorry state I am in now........

Freak I am feeling damn shagged now even though I have been sleeping most of the day.
just have not recovered from this morning, I basically went to bed at 5am and woke up at 10am.
felt damn weird as if it was a school day I would almost be waking up for school, but instead I was actually going to bed at 5............weird
anyway I watched MY SASSY Girl on channel U from 12 to 220am then I went to lie down for twenty minutes before watching the France match.
Don't get me started on the France match......Total waste of time, if I knew France was going to lose..........
Henry wasted too many chances but can't really blame him, he is not known for his heading ability.
Greece just played very defensive football which basically spoiled the entire game and to further win the match through a counterattack.....Its just so unfair
for me I like a game where both sides attack, go for the kill, not sit back and defend and hope to catch the other team on the break.
it is so negative and ugly......

well the match really sucked but the same can't be said for MY SASSY GIRL.
my friend said it was a really great movie but I still had my doubts initially.
I am not a big fan of Korean love dramas or movies, but this was totally different.
it was touching and emotional yet lighthearted altogether...Makes me wish I have a girlfriend......
awesome show..Think I am going to buy the VCD
maybe I should go watch WINDSTRUCK, supposedly to be as good as MY SASSY GIRL, but thing is who to go with....
going with a guy is just too weird...and I don't want to go with any girl and give the wrong impression....

anyway I really should be studying right now but like I said I am just totally wasted.....Think I will just put it off to tomorrow.
but then again.........

Freak this is not the original Blog for today
it got lost........
now i am no longer in the mood anymore.........
anyway France to beat Greece 3-0
provided the bloody Santini does not play Henry as a target man and let him attack from the wing
Zidane to create from the middle of midfield and Trezeguet to punce on any loose balls
France no problem!!!!!!!!

YO finally started on my revision
going on quite well, about half way through biology
most likely would be able to finish it by today afternoon and can start on chemistry at night.
I think there is enough time for revision, maybe sometime for swimming in between

Feeling very tired right now just listening to some music.
well its time to face reality, school is about to start. There is no escaping it, and with school comes the exams.
I was just thinking maybe I should just heck the freaking mid years and don't study, but would I be willing to suffer the repercussions? I seriously don't know.
have about 2 years worth of chemistry to catch up in 5 days...Damn

its times like this when I feel if only I could turn back time...But then again this feeling usually disappears in a few hours....I think I am just having a mood swing.........

getting pretty sick of my life...
no freaking direction just floundering
thinking whether I should follow the path of some of my friends, heck the studying just live day by day
after all a cert does not mean a happy life
working everyday to maintain a executive lifestyle, why bother?
would I be happier being a graduate than someone who is not?
in Singapore there is this massive paper chase but basically noone knows what he wants or where he wants to go.
seen people doing a particular course, I ask them why they do it.......The reply..coz its the only thing I could qualify for or everyone join so I follow........Stupid

I am also guilty of this
what do I want?

Went swimming again
woke up at 8 after breakfast I met my two friends at the basketball court. From there we made our way to yishun swimming complex.
getting used to swimming now, managed to do 10 laps, of course not in one go took about 10 breaks.
basically a break every length.
feeling really sore all over ............
getting a nice tan too...Ha

Finally.............whew!
managed to add a link
not easy with this computer language stuff

Yo seven days till the exams,
I know I should start studying but hey I still have time (I hope!)
anyway I went swimming today with one of my friends
it was my first time swimming for like almost 4 years.
the last time I was swimming was when I capsized my canoe in the kallang river and was struggling to stay afloat.
well anyway I dived straight in to the pool and attempted a some sort of breast stroke.
problem was I just could not coordinate the actions of my arms and legs, further more I just could not bring myself to put my head under water.
everytime I tried, water would rush into my nostrils prompting me to panic and make a grab for the side of the pool.
but as time went on I gradually gained confidence and soon I was able to swim decently well.
managed to swim about 150m with some pitstops here and there, but I think I faired not too bad considering the fact that I have not been in a pool for 4 years.
after that went to the toliet to change and bloody hell i had to drop my underwear on the toliet floor............arrrrrrrrrr
it got wet....DUH!
the toliet had this pungent smell of urine and so i decided not to take any chances.
it felt liberating to walk home without underwear....airy

well i have decided its just too late to study and anyway i feel sore and freaking shagged from the afternoon swim.
promise to study hard tomorrow......

Freak i am bored
its late but i don't feel like turning in yet

Today has been ok
nothing much happened, just been going around doing the same stuff
woke up went to church
yeh
listened to the homily
something about life should not be stressful(unhappy)
need to give up our pain, unhappiness to god
something about just not hanging on to all that emotional useless baggage stuff

found it quite true

after that bought a slurpee from 7 eleven
probably got more than I paid for
not my fault that it overflowed
I had to lick it up from the side of the cup
of course this conveniently occurred a few times

after lunch I just sat around stoned for a while
then it was time for basketball
YEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
got my and1's laced up and I was ready to play ball
did my usual stuff, crossovers, spins
nothing too fancy
of course I can't really do those and1 stuff
basically not many people in SG can
in Singapore no one goes around doing a double crossover or tornado, it could get you beaten up by some sore loser ah beng
need a lot of respect for your opponent while playing baLL in Singapore
no trash talking all embarrassing your opponent....Unless of course you have some backing
sometimes its just stupid that people get angry over a freaking bball match
but this is streetball no referees, basically no rules...
the person with the best moves owns the court

now just listening to some Beastie Boys
check check check check it out..........................

Another day wasted away
sitting around on the couch all day
changing channels every second
literally wasting my time away
I know I should do something fruitful
but I think I will just wait for another day

just a boring Saturday
wake up
watch TV
slack around, update my friendster
eat lunch
play basketball
eat dinner
update my friendster................

ever since the holidays started I have become some 'friendster' freak , I initially dismissed this so called service as some kind of fad. It just seemed so lame, adding people you already know into an online 'album', furthermore few actually like use the stuff that comes along with it like the messaging system.
it seemed like just one whole big waste of time, some kind of self gratification program to boast of ones vast number of friends.
but over time this 'friendster' thing actually became quite fun I actually located people I used to know way back in primary school. This of course is not a friendster advertisement but somehow seeing yourself connected to so many people through your immediate friends, it somehow makes one feel special. For me at least.

Do you know if you look into a mirror, you are not really looking at yourself but a totally opposite image of yourself.............

1210 am Saturday morning.....
time is just ticking away or flashing away (digital clock)
9 days..9 days before the mid year exams and I have not even started on my revision. Exams right after the holidays? It just doesn't make sense to me, who in the right mind would study during the school holidays?
Obviously someone does not understand the mind of a normal teenager.

Timeline of a teenager during vacation
1 I have all the time in the world

2 I can do it later

3 Slack..Slack..Slack

4 Play..Play..Play

5 TV TV TV TV TV

6 Homework? what homework

7 3 days to the start of school...I have time to finish my 3 foot thick assignments

8 (morning of the first day of school) DAmn!